Reflection time

Lately, I have been feeling kinda down. Suddenly, I feel like my clinical skills have not reached the level, which I am able to work independently to deal with different cases. Having a posting on HUKM especially makes me realise I am not knowledgeable enough, in terms of understanding various pathologies and disorders. Even with cases I have done so many times during my second and third year, such as hearing impaired cases, now, I don't quite feel confident doing too. I am not sure is it the setting and supervisor that makes me feel very cautious and conscious about whether I am doing the right thing, or is it really that I have gone rusty, due to lack of practice and revision. Sigh. 

Besides, I am finally seeing my first pure artic case. Bam! Reality was harsh on me. My thereotical knowledge isn't strong enough. Also, flexibility is one key element I notice I have not improved much throughout the years. Like Ms. Leong commented, I need to really deal with my stress management, and not let it affect my performance. Anyway, I couldn't be more grateful that my supervisor is Dr. Lim this semester. She's good in this area. Even though I am expected to be scolded a lot, and probably do a lot of corrections, I'm sure it would benefit me significantly. 

Another huge problem is when I had an older child with cleft lip and palate, associated with hearing impairment. This is the point I was like, man! I never know how to use the IPA dicratic symbols at all. Counting the times I have changed my transcription, and also my analysis report, I hope it is worth the effort. I hope what I did would receive some constructive  feedback from my supervisor. It's my very first time. She would really look at it thoroughly right? Fingers crossed! 

Have been feeling very very lazy and slow these days, this is certainly what you call as 'denial'. Time to get yourself back together, hun! Thesis, clinics, readings bla bla bla. I can do it. 

Tiff. 

Self reflection. 

And. 

A cheer for myself. 

Wheee~

HUKM and low battery now. Sob.