My Comforter

John 14:27

Peace I leave with you,my peace I give you.I do not give you as the world gives.Don't let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

It is the end of September already.My STPM will be coming,and very soon it will be finished and there come the time I had to prepare for universities,overseas I wish.EILTS,skills,language proficiency and all,I must value my time,to UPGRADE myself.And of course, I must talk to my parents about going to church,my religion talk and all.I've been getting quite some advice from some nice people,about this by chance.All of them mean a lot to me,thank God for it.

Besides that,I am also upset due to the fact that,there're so little time left for me and my dear.He has been trying to strengthen me up all the while we are together.It sometimes works but...well,I can just say,I may be stronger mentally but not excellent yet though.Anyway,I am quite nervous about the farewell we will be facing soon.(after two months or more I guess)Since we started our relationship,I had not been apart from him for more than one month.I am really scared of what might happen between us in future.Since he told me that he'll leave for university,in UK, after the one or two-months-trip plus work,it is difficult for me to be as cheerful as I always be.Insecurity is always a big problem to me.I had been trying to be strong and praying to be strong and overcome my fear.

Until last night,I pray to God,talk to Him about what is bothering me and seek for his help,before starting every night reading.

God answers!Again!The first line that comes to my eyes is Do not let your hearts be troubled.Trust in God,trust also in me (John14:1) My tears started rolling down when I saw this.I couldn't tell why but I cried.It is like I found someone who understands me,without needing me to say it out.The kind of consolation I rarely find from the friends around me,I felt it last night,from God.Thank you,LORD.

And this came to my mind.Matthew 6:25-34 (Do not worry).Our Father in Heaven knows what we need and will give us what we need.I shouldn't be worry about anything,God always know the best thing on us.Everything that happens in our life mean something,we may not understand the meaning behind it but God knows.Think about the last incident that happen in your life,as such,you did badly in the subject that you've always very sure that you will do well.Don't you realize that the result is bad because you are too relaxed and did not work as hard as you used to be?It is just an example though.But,what I wanna say is that,if things didn't go as what we wish,God has his reason for it.Therefore,I shall leave all the worries to God,and live my life happily,and always be positive.

LORD,help me to overcome my fear thinking about my unpredictable future.Help me always to remember everything is under Your control.AMEN!

**It is probably the second time I wrote a post about my reading.Wish it is not too bad and wish it is better than the first time.^^