After my long silence..
Just gotten my result this morning. Well, kinda disappointed with my performance. I should have gotten better result. I remembered i work harder than this result shows....3.67. How to say... considered above average, but I know I should have gotten better result. I really work for it. Parents are very disappointed too. My school results make them to have high expectations on me. But, perhaps school's Bio and Chem are easy..?
Thank God for his blessings. At least I could reach the conditions in my conditional offers. Now, I pray very hard, to know what to do next. my result could not get me into local U dentistry. But I am sure the Lord has already know what I have to go for. Perhaps like what Caryn told me.. Speech therapy. May not earn much in the first few years..but can help those needy kids. And it is also a profession.
Well, some place in my heart, I still feel that it is one of God's wonderful arrangement. Caryn is only here for a couple of days, and she talked to me about this and advise me to consider it too. It stirred up my mind a lot, to make me think of what I intend to do actually. Helping people with my profession or.. EARN lots of money. Which one do I want? Or more accurately, which one is more meaningful for me? Think of the kids. The kids should be like the usual one, running around, chattering all the time, laughing, and all. Happy. But the special kids, who needs help, could not look into others' eyes to talk. And some could not speak a word properly. I used to love helping people, but did not think about it for quite some time already. I am too foolish, thinking that I could decide my own future. I am wrong, forgive me LORD. I have forgotten You are the one, who has the power to decide my future, because only You, know what is best for each one of us.
I will pray hard and have faith. I am sure the Lord will make way for me. I will be patient. And wait. And. HAVE FAITH. Thank You, Lord. For never leaving me behind. I love you. In Jesus' name, AMEN!
Thank God for his blessings. At least I could reach the conditions in my conditional offers. Now, I pray very hard, to know what to do next. my result could not get me into local U dentistry. But I am sure the Lord has already know what I have to go for. Perhaps like what Caryn told me.. Speech therapy. May not earn much in the first few years..but can help those needy kids. And it is also a profession.
Well, some place in my heart, I still feel that it is one of God's wonderful arrangement. Caryn is only here for a couple of days, and she talked to me about this and advise me to consider it too. It stirred up my mind a lot, to make me think of what I intend to do actually. Helping people with my profession or.. EARN lots of money. Which one do I want? Or more accurately, which one is more meaningful for me? Think of the kids. The kids should be like the usual one, running around, chattering all the time, laughing, and all. Happy. But the special kids, who needs help, could not look into others' eyes to talk. And some could not speak a word properly. I used to love helping people, but did not think about it for quite some time already. I am too foolish, thinking that I could decide my own future. I am wrong, forgive me LORD. I have forgotten You are the one, who has the power to decide my future, because only You, know what is best for each one of us.
I will pray hard and have faith. I am sure the Lord will make way for me. I will be patient. And wait. And. HAVE FAITH. Thank You, Lord. For never leaving me behind. I love you. In Jesus' name, AMEN!
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