VD is here again... Sigh

Valentine's Day is here again. It's gonna be our fourth VD this year. Since last year, when I look at the calendar, I had excitedly tell my coursemates, I'm gonna be back in KL earlier to celebrate this VD with him. I was very excited and was very looking forward to it. Then, that day, seemed like he doesn't think of spending time with me. Besides questioning why I wanna be back so early, he also said it's not that he doesn't let me see at all. Sigh. I mean, he always failed to get the main point and how come he never ask to meet up. Anyway, I guess I shouldn't say anything more about this, if I do not want to hear him telling me I'm demanding anymore. Screw the VD. I'll just be alone at home or in KL, depending on the date of the available bus ticket. Sigh. I really thought this year, I could finally celebrate it with him. In the almost four years relationship. I only got to celebrate my first year VD with him, which was the most surprising and happiest one ever. The second one, the situation did not allow. The third one, I don't want to recall it, another upset memory. But at least, I wasn't alone, my cousin brother brought me and another cousin sister of his maternal side to a Korean restaurant before sending me back to hostel in KL. However, this year, I really, honestly, was expecting a meal date with dear. But screw it. I guess one day, I will just be okay and stop wishing for any, knowing the result would be the same... Hmm. But I really wish I could get a cheap necklace, bracelet or bangle, from any gift shop, this year..which could make me feel like he's with me wherever I am... Hmm. Sigh. Never mind. I will just buy myself a new iPad cover this year as a VD present for myself... Hmm.

Tiff,

Still wishing my wish of celebrating VD with him can come true... 

Let me have such a dream during my sleep like this morning....I would be contented.... 

Love.