Paranoid

Now that I'm growing elder everyday, and so do my parents, I feel that I am facing a lot of moments of paranoia. For example, tonight. My parents have the habit of going to the washroom halfway sleeping, usually around 1-2am(they sleep very early). It's a shared washroom, but attached to their room. Anyway, I could hear almost every sound/noise, cause it's kinda close to my room too. So, what happen was: after the flushing sound, I heard a loud 'bang' sound(like the kind you accidentally knock on the sink). Immediately in my head, I was thinking could it be Mum or Dad falling down, knocking their head on the sink or Sth. I got so worried and opened the door to check. Thank God. Nothing like that happen. Such thing happened once before, not long ago, when Mum was on her school trip to melacca and Dad is sleeping alone. I heard some 'bang' sound too and got so worried and checked. Gosh! I'm being over paranoid I feel. I don't know. I just got very worried that anything might happen to them, and take them away from me. I know it's crazy to think like this. However, it's true. The fact that I might lose them one day is the biggest fear of my life. They're the people I love the most on earth. Since I was given my first breath, they've been around for me. They are the ones, holding my hands during my first step, shaping me into who I am, giving me all they could.. I just couldn't fathom the idea that they've actually waved farewell to the first half of their lives. I just pray to God, that He would always bless them, and that He would love them the way He loves me, that He would bring them to Him, turned their hearts, to accept Jesus as our Saviour. It's my biggest dream that we would share the same belief. Just some ramblings tonight, after realizing how paranoid I've been lately. Good night. God bless you. 

Tiff,

Love.